paint by numbers was good as a child

one could find order by following the system

i am looking for that system for my life

if it were just I…………….. and I were left alone perhaps the numbers would be easier to follow but people keep moving the numbers around

what are reasonable expectations…………….at this moment I have a hard time envisioning that i will always be in control of my emotions

so what is this a starting place. alright this can be a starting place and i will place and  ”x” by the date

i am not the ”teflon” man, things stick because my sense of retaliation is greater them my desire for peace………………..that’s the real skinny in a nutshell

there is a point of reckoning, and i am there, if a person place or thing continues to barge in on my serenity…………………….gotta go

now on the holier than thou platform, i could say ” having achieved the level of maturity and spiritualism where things don’t bother me anymore, i am able to walk through this life unscathed by the undermining attempts of others”…………………………….niccccccce thoughts

it ain’t happened so far………………….until then if you continue to be problematic………………………….the door is right over there………Godspeed

here, i’ll draw a line——————————————/