I woke up this morning, not came to, thank God, and a thought came across my noggin, ” what is the worst mistake I can make”

well the initial thought that came in my mind, probably because I am a control freak is that I should think that i am in charge of anything

I just accepted that thought without debate and here we are

I participate, and to often I rate and berate and plow forward,rarely hesitate and end up dazed and confused if I’m the one doing the planning and arranging……………………often i do not know or don’t care to admit what is best for me let alone what is right for you

the best decision I will ever make is the feeble attempts I put forth at turning my will and life over to this kind, considerate, loyal dependable, consistent guy I call God.

my fear of God as a child has grown to respect………………………..let me make it clear I have personal experience of His divine grace and His willingness to ” kick my ass if I need it”…………………and i’m good with that

a mamby pamby God wouldn’t work for me, I shy away from wishy washy people and I sure wouldn’t respect a God like that

so it isn’t me that shakes the trees……………………..plants the gardens or makes babies…………………..it is something to big for me to understand………………………………..but i catch glimpses…………………and they are magical, mysterious and good, very good