everyday is not going to be a stellar day you won’t feel you should be riding a float in a parade confetti and streamers won’t be flyin’ your way but you don’t have to be a pothole……………………….. in someone’s day this has been my m.o., and i’m not proud to say when i catch hell…

i will start with giving credit for that statement to David Jenkins……..a friend who tried to teach me but i was under the heavy influence of addiction for Amelia,CC, Cullen and Ian……………….my grandkids the most unwilling, uncooperative, don’t want any of this grandfather there ever was………………………….immediately went to ”we will be the designated drop off…

freedom isn’t free, takes a fair amount of work to get out of me if you want to be free, stop thinking so much…………………………just enjoy being pondering is a beautiful pastime, until it becomes consuming this is a simple axiom that perplexes me and does so until i accept it: some things i will never…

i just know it’s here somewhere, the little spacer that goes between thought and speech, a.k.a the ”pause button” mine is broken………………………..it’s like the transmission in my Yarus……………………….. it’s starting to slip and my ” pause button” allows things to slip out …………………………things that don’t need to be ” thought” much less spoken controlling my…

we’ll see how often my wife reads this blog.……………………… consumed with  things i have no control over for years…………………………….opinions about this……………creating dissent at home, with friends, at work…………….ridiculous enough…………………………….i believe in voting………………..don’t vote………don’t complain but the hours i have spent listening to hundreds of different self- serving slants on the same thing……crazy no more………………………..if i…

life : the ongoing narrative when it is ”all ” said…………………………………………..at least everything you are gonna say, what is the message of your book so far this is my message: you can do it your way, just remember everything has a price………your way can be expensive, mine was your message will never be heard if…

say we each have an allotment of 1,000,000 words when we enter this world…………. and you live you life. you got kinda old but you really weren’t  feeling all that bad and you get an email for the ”Chief Timekeeper” that you are down to you last hundred words before you become recycled………………………………….damn went faster…

let’s start with me……………………..i am classified as white and i’m not white, reddish brown but not white most of my friends that are classified as black aren’t black, from olive to various shades of brown my black friends are Africans………………………………………….. so……………………………………. what the hell are we doing still referring to each other by race………………………………….i live…

it doesn’t matter now, that was his name………………..his family wouldn’t dispute a word of this anyway this is called ”cracking the safe”/ for r.s. a bastard………………………., nothing good to say about anyone or anything everyone has had or will have an r.s., in their life, most of us will put them in a box and deal…

my old man,dad, father…………………………..and he was all these at different times depending on what his middle son, me, did to provoke the living sh..t outta him i can say at 63 that he did the best he could for me and my brothers. given what i know now and being at a different place in…