some days it’s easy being me and some days it sucks

sometimes i feel like i’m on one of the moving transporters at the big airports and i’m just waving at people and places as they pass by, like a parade wave

then other days i have concrete blocks attached to my feet and i struggle from one point in the day to the next

the regular days are a combination of smaller issues, that fall into one of two categories , either i can affect them at present or i can’t…………….leaving some that need additional steps

so the typical thing i start to do, i have come to recognize this pattern, is feeling singled out and chosen as the recipient of today’s ”shit”…………………………it is so easy to turn a day into a series, and then a pattern and the next thing you know the world has a ”contract ” out on you………………………i have done this

then you can spend many, many fruitless hours trying to decide what happened, instead of making a list of anyone you trampled, and correcting that asap, saying your prayers, asking for forgiveness and help, to do better tomorrow

i am not special nor am i on any radar screens……………………my fear leads me down those alleys of ”singled out”

you are not the only one that feels this way from time to time and neither am I……………..you might need to hear it and i need to remember it

i’m just sayin’