I hid in my castle and never felt safe, surrounded by weapons and feared for my life, locks on the doors were strong and tight………………….and lived in fear

I looked in all directions when I went for a walk, paranoid they were coming, they were there in the dark / was able to say to myself for awhile……………..nothing is wrong, it’s not that bad

the nights were the hardest, amplified my fears,  any sound I heard sent terror through my mind and somewhere during the night I would collapse and that’s how sleep found me

the first rays of light amazed me that I had made it, only to be faced with the realization that I was going to repeat the same pattern again……………..insane

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most get a second shot……………………some take it and some not

the script writers are ready to write a new plan…………………but you have to be willing to die to yourself

you are the enemy let’s be clear, it isn’t your family, friends or no friends, it is you

something or some things about yourself you can’t accept and all the vices in the world won’t make them go away…………………………..you will always be stuck with you

there is a way……………..and you can’t make it                          there is hope…………………  but you have to take it                       once you let go of any notion you know shit about life or yourself                          the movers will come in and little by little move you out of the castle and back into the world                    a world you never dreamed of…………………………………..

thanks for the words G